Meh...Sometimes we just want something else :-/

Sometimes I just want  a do-over on the day or just do life differently...

I'm on day 4 of a 6 week program that I've set out for myself and so far only 1 and a half day, has been kinda accurate to what I've set out to do...

Health is number 1 priority, but today I just want skinny thighs.  That's the afternoon I'm having.

I've eating loads of white bread and coffee.  The poor ol' water bottle is getting my cold shoulder.  And the veggies in the fridge is icing up from loneliness!!

Like a friend put it: my jeans are squirming away when I try and approach them! LOL!!

I'm contemplating on perhaps still giving Chloe Ting's 2 Week Shred exercise, the 15min's go ahead a bit later still.  And maybe even guzzle some water before the day gets too late...

Let's see.  Because for now I'm feeling...Meh!

Emitonal eating

Why am I such an emotional eater???!!!!
Why can I not just simply make the switch in my brain to ONLY eat for fueling my body - Nutrient dense foods and when I need it - timeously...

Big breaths in...remembering that sugar addiction, food addiction and brain paths are all real things...

This blogspot has really helped me to just off load in "dear diary" style.  To keep my sanity and just vent about whatever is on my mind...soooo greatful for such a platform!

I want to break with the artificial sugar habit that I have.  As well as the habit of running to food for comfort and temporary relief from whatever discomfort I feel in that said moment.

But I guess if bad habits were that easy to overcome and break - everybody would be successful. 

Not to say that everybody has the sense of knowing their faults and bad habitual "go to's".  But at least those of us that are fortunate enough to know what we are doing is wrong - even to some - as we realize we've made a mistake, after it had occurred:   if we could break with that bad idea/habit/addiction - the world would be a much different place.

Going a bit deep here, but the world is the world.  Not heaven.  Just the world.   Perfection does not exist other than in the form where living organisms, 100% gives over to exist in the natural form in which it was intended to.

The bottom line for me, is that I cannot live or exist without doing so in Christ.  Dependency on Him and in relationship with Him, the Father and the Holy Spirit...

(Why can we talk and write wise words but not live them??!!!)

Back to square one.

And my conclusion:  life is a balancing act where I have to live in Christ, have a relationship with Him and also do my bit in forming my brain paths / faith.

Emotion eating, only touched on...it makes sense in my brain.  And perhaps I'll elaborate a bit later even more.

Logging for accountability - day 1 (Love'em)

I just need to keep track of my training and what better place to find it easy and fast, than on the world wide web :-)

Tuesday:

22mins running on the treadmill:  

5min warm up, incline 0.5, speed 9.5km/h

1min speed, 11km/h

1min incline, 6

1min incline 8

Repeat the last 3 things 4 times

5min cool down on speed 9km/h

2000m row (done in 10mins)

3 sets of 10: Dead lifts

1st set:  15kg bar

2nd set:  20kg bar

3rd set:  25kg bar

(think I'm gonna be stiff from this tomorrow)

3 x 10 box jumps on level 4.

5min's of stretching....Yup, gonna be stiff in the morning :-)

Eating was quite bad.  Will try better tomorrow.

Night world!

Day 13 & 14: 3 Months till summer

It's a beautiful day outside, and I cannot help feel grateful for all that I have...  The glasses I'm wearing right now, makes my weekend look and feel PERFECT!

 

Day 13 and 14, went really well and I'm proud of the fact that the Holy Spirit helps me with focus and self control.

Friday evening I had the opportunity to have a cheat meal and just "let my hair loose".  But through the grace of God, He reminded me of the 2 days this week I already did that, PLUS last weekend I threw caution to the wind throughout the whole weekend.  So, in actual fact - only having 2 successful days already this past week. 

I opted for all the left over protein I could find in the fridge and an apple, 2 cups of coffee and half a glass of red wine - that was Friday night dinner :-)

No form of exercise though (I wanted to do some YouTube Pilates).

 

Saturday morning we went to go run a Tough Mudder race, and wow!!! What an awesome experience!! We only participated in the half event, but my body still says thank you and ouch, at the same time!😆

 I ate a banana before the race.  Half a banana during the race.  Then 2 apples after the race.  And at home I had a slice of banting bread with cheese.  The evening we over did it a bit with little bit of sushi, chicken curry and chinese-chicken noodles.  This last meal was not calculated, but I feel it was in the good spirits of love and family and not over one at all.

This is the main thing that counts, in life in general:  not to over do anything, but keep it all in moderation...

 

For now, it's 56 days till my high school reunion and I want to keep on challenging my body to see where I can take it in these 50-what days.

 

Today (day 15), I'll need to think and do some meal prepping for the week to come.

This might be my biggest challenge for the day, since it's beautiful outside and I want to see some friends, take care of my children, spend time with hubby AND do some washing before the rain starts again tomorrow... Meal prep might get left behind.  But I'm gonna have to give it a push and a go lest I get left behind when Monday morning munchies and responsibilities hit!

 

Be blessed all!

Day 12: 3 Months till Summer

Day 12...

It went super well today as well!

I was just too lazy for exercise, but abs are made in the kitchen right!!

So, no complaints from my side...

My motivation keeps on being the focus about: what is it that I want to look like in 57 days from now?!

And that kind of body is made in every hour of every day leading up to THAT day. 

And I know that I need to “cheat” somewhere and let my hair loose a bit. 

But 1stly, I want a lifestyle change and not a diet. And secondly, the reason I’m being super strict about it, is that time is so short and I want to maximise it optimally!!

I had biltong for breakfast (was shopping and was on the go). I keep on snacking on popcorn throughout the day. But in total it’s about 2 cups full for the whole day. 

I had a slice of banting bread, cheese and tomatoe, for lunch. 

And dinner I was feeling some more of the laziness, and had chicken breast, cheese, 2 egg white egg cups mixed with a teaspoon of mayonaise and a glass of red wine 😏

I’m working that red wine down with a bottle of water 😎

🥦 Cheers!! To 56 more days after this one!!

Day 11: 3 Months till Summer

Day 11, and it went awesome!!
Perhaps the water intake could’ve been better, but food wise it went almost perfect!!I drink waaay too much coffee and had about 2 cups before the green veggie superfood drink and 3 egg white, egg cups for breakfast. 

Then lunch was another 2 cups of coffee with some chicken breast and half a sandwhich from what my son brought home after school (with ham on it). 

I snacked on his popcorn in the afternoon. And we ate left over fish with a huge green salad, for dinner. 

Oh! And a half a glass of red wine 😏

In 58 days it’s my 20yr High School reunion. I am stolked about it and feel it’s a nice weight-goal to aim for, for now. 

(It’s also 2 weeks before the summer holiday kicks off. So, compound intrest baby!!)

I kept in mind the whole day: what am I building - what is it that I want to look like in 58 days. Becausr every hour of today was moulding towards that!!

Now for some zzzzz ☺️

Day 9 & 10: 3 Months till summer

I didn’t get up when my alarm sounded, and the day has been like that all the way through...
This was day 10.

Day 9 actually went extreemly well!
I had a green smoothie for breakfast.
Went for a 5km run.
Had a slice of banting bread and cheese for AM snack.
A chicken muffin and an apple for Lunch. Then 3 egg white, egg cups for PM snack. And chicken and stir fried vedge for dinner.

But somehow I just yoyo back and forth. One day great and the next day is like today: no exercise and plenty of unhealthy foods.

Well, the days are tickin’ away and in 2 and a half months it’ll be the 1st of December. And I have to decide every hour of every day, from now on going forward: what type of body would I like by that date. Because I’m building that EXACT body, every hour of every day.

On a positive note: I want to look and feel healthy - I want to be able to give away my current clothes for good - I want to live by example and be proud of the body God gave me!