I'm learning that as with any addiction, you can never just assume that you are rehabilitated...
I was doing well for a stretch of time and was hoping that auto-pilot was doing pretty well on it's own. But then one night the part of my brain who is used to calling on food for reward and rest and comfort, sought out the "yummy-cupboard" in our kitchen and partially raided it.
Guilt only came the next morning and I had to regroup and think and assess: what happened - what went wrong - where was auto-pilot in all of this???
I realized: Firstly, auto-pilot has by no means been in training long enough.
Secondly: Perhaps I must come to terms that food will always be a reward for me. And that it is okay. As long as it's done at the right time and in moderation.
I am still on the bandwagon that I should not reward myself with food. But that there is reward and reward.
The bad kind - the kind that holds onto my thighs and muffin top - the one that holds me company while I go through emotional crisis, or PMS, or flustered exhaustion while the kids are buzzing and nagging at my feet - the kind where a real quick "just stuff my face", so my soul will feel comforted by a neurological signal in my brain, as it releases dopamine and hits that sweet spot-bad kind...
You know: that kind of food-reward-system :-)
I have to re-train, re-program and set new goals - new rewards - validating and celebrating my biological God-given body for all the miracles it performs every 24 hours of every day and passing year!!
Two things need to change:
1. I should start using food as fuel to even better my inner workings of my body, and
2. I should train my brain on another reward-system for when I feel overwhelmed.
I listened to Gravity Transformation talk on weight-loss and compare it to tooth decay.
What an awesome analogy!! He said that you wouldn't go to the dentist and ask the dentist: how long do I need to keep on cleaning my teeth for them to permanently stay healthy? Because brushing your teeth and protecting them against decaying and plaque, is a daily process that has to be maintained for the rest of your life (if you want healthy plaque free teeth).
And this sums up healthy bodies as well!
If I've go plaque, I will go for a treatment and the dentist will assist me with a cleaning. But then the responsibility lies with me - I have to brush my teeth daily and look after them accordingly. And the same with weight loss and maintaining a healthy body. I need to take action to achieve the desired health status. And then I have to maintain such protocol, for the rest of my life!
Wow!! What a perspective change!!
It's because we live in a quick fix - instant life. Everything is quick, fast and instant. And I'm expecting to see and change things in that kind of fashion. When slow is the way to go ;-)
Quite irritating, but yip. That's the answer!
I listened to Gravity Transformation talk on weight-loss and compare it to tooth decay.
What an awesome analogy!! He said that you wouldn't go to the dentist and ask the dentist: how long do I need to keep on cleaning my teeth for them to permanently stay healthy? Because brushing your teeth and protecting them against decaying and plaque, is a daily process that has to be maintained for the rest of your life (if you want healthy plaque free teeth).
And this sums up healthy bodies as well!
If I've go plaque, I will go for a treatment and the dentist will assist me with a cleaning. But then the responsibility lies with me - I have to brush my teeth daily and look after them accordingly. And the same with weight loss and maintaining a healthy body. I need to take action to achieve the desired health status. And then I have to maintain such protocol, for the rest of my life!
Wow!! What a perspective change!!
It's because we live in a quick fix - instant life. Everything is quick, fast and instant. And I'm expecting to see and change things in that kind of fashion. When slow is the way to go ;-)
Quite irritating, but yip. That's the answer!
